Yup

Poor little Xanga. I will be leaving you.

I am on facebook and I am on MySpace (just look for my name)

I am on those a whole lot more than I am on here. I have....given up on little xanga.

Thank you

/bows

Making some changes.

Okay, so, I'm going to take a break (don't know how long) from the messenger, the facebook, the myspace, the xanga, and the male species.

My spiritual friends have brought to my attention some character flaws of mine and what is holding me back from getting myself under control, making necassary changes, and getting a grip on reality and on the reality of human behavior. I'm REALLY vunerable..I mean...really really vunerable and easily swayed and suggestable, and I have been too stubborn to stop myself. Well, that is going to change starting 03/28/07. Sorry gentlemen (except you David, you're harmless, in CO, and I've known you for so many years it's unreal. You are a help to me as a spiritual friend.) I'll be off limits and my foot is staying down on this (Finally using my stubborness for something useful).

I must get my moral ducks in a row and stick to my guns. My emotions are getting too out of wack and it's going to hurt not just me but those pursuing me, or around me, at this point if I don't step back, cool my jets, and get myself under some semblence of control. I also need to get back in step with God and my faith. I'm falling from grace and who I am. 

Hopefully everyone understand why I am doing what I'm doing.

Thank you.

Update

So, much has happened since the last post. The good, the sad, and the painful

I've been sick, probably with what everyone else around campus is catching.

I've also done something that will affect two lives. God will know the outcome as to what happens next. I'm just tired of feeling guilty for feeling like I'm decieving and living immorally due to my lack of self-control. Things need to be put in some semblance of order to know where my place would be and how hard I will fight for that place. Forgive me.

Classes are going well, but not as well as I'd hope. I am still determained to move forward and get better, get stronger, and wise up.

Beyond that, just trucking forward like I have and need to.

I feel...

Frustratingly, I feel lonely and clingy. i have been for some time now.

MAKE IT STOP!!! I am NOT a codependent personality type!! I've always been an independent...I can be alone for months/years type!

Some change....is not good.

o_O

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